Amma had called yesterday.She was telling how the Pavazhamalli has started flowering. I planted it, when we came to the new house. I am simply crazy (this is a bit heavy word, but still I am unable to find a better one) over that flower, its shape, it s color, fragrance...everything. Its pure unblemished white color with a saffronish steam is unique and the softness of its petals are incomparable. There are references in out epics too-it was called "Paarijatham" -remember the flower for which Dhrowpathi sends Bheema to Indraloaka...The flower has a peculiarity of flowering in the evening or Nightfall, when the moon raises. The fragrance it sprays in the cool breeze is irresistible. I have planted it in the front courtyard of our house and to just sit there in a folding chair (easy chair as it is called) in an evening enjoying the scent of the flower along with a Bharathi or Thiruvika would be next best thing to Heaven..That would enchant me beyond words...I have always dreamt of such an experience...but to my disappointment, the first 4 or 5 saplings never saw the light of the day. Frustrated, I planted the current one with a faint hope...But it survived...started budding growing.. it grew to around 5 -6 feet and then there was a heavy pest infestation...but by that time I have come outta my house for my engineering...but all these time it never flowered...There was no fragrance....not even a single flower...even when I was doing my engineering, I never failed to nurture it whenever I come home for vacations..Whenever I called home Pavazhamalli never forgot a mention...but always a negative one...it has not flowered...I lost hope but never the faith...

Yesterday when she called I could sense something different in her voice. There was a tinge of excitement in her voice. After the initial ju-ju talk, the first news she spoke was this. It has started flowering and flowers in bunches. I was pleasantly surprised...

But in retrospect, it seems I have always got what I yearn for only after my yearning has died down..I had rarely enjoyed the momentary bliss u get when U get what u want when u want it...It had mostly been an after thought achievement of a helpless person...I might be wrong..but this is what I feel...this would only be a momentary thought but then I have seen it happen time and again...when I detach myself from my desires, they just fall onto my lap. This has happened many times- be it the first job or the Scholarships or the Summers. I dont know what to infer from this....